Saturday, January 6, 2007

Broken and reshaped!

I am sitting reflecting thru my year (2006)...wonderful, amazing, exhilarating! These are few words I can think of to describe what I have been thru. There are ups and downs, but above all, I am still who I am created by our gracious God with love! So many times I tried to finish or accomplished things with my own strength but i struggle. Again, trained a scientist, doesn't help. I can meticulous at times, making sure everything is in place, where it should be, how it should be, by my own standard. Times and times again, God will have to break it down to pieces and remould it again. This is because, God wanted me perfect in His eyes...not mine or anyone else in this case. He created me, special! He wanted His standard, not my standard. Many times, I will have to say, yes Lord, You are in control! But many times too, I bargain.




There will not be another way, another shape...just His! I am glad that He is so interested in me. He is always making sure that I am in perfect condition, at least in His eyes. That's all matter. Can I say this, He is deeply in love with me. I know a lot of people will not agree with what I says, but hey! He love me. not just superficial love, but with tender, care and interest. When He shine in my life, all darkness leave! As the sun shine, all darkness left, the coldness change to warmth. Things sprung to life, birds flies. Flowers blooms. I love to be in light, not darkness.




I thank God for all He did for me, in me and through me! I love it. And now, in the new year, 2007 (Happy New Year), I am nervous. Exited. Afraid. Motivated. Scared. Irony, isn't it? I am expecting the Lord not to slow down with me, but continue to work with me, in me, changing me constantly. I am anticipating His work in me, but at the mean time, I am afraid and nervous of what He is going to do. How will He change me to be a better person? How will He change me to be more like Him, in His likeness? Don't get me wrong here, I don't want to be God, but I want to be like Him, pure and holy. I want to be His mouthpiece. Vessel. Lighthouse. Holy nation. Royal priesthood.
I wil continue to be like this new sprout, having new exiting journey with the Lord. Continue to have hope. As God continue to mould me, I have my expectation this year.

I wanted to be His disciples. I intended to study His Words more, so, I want to enrol for some classes. I wanted to win at least 2 people for Him. I still remember what I am committed to do. "With Jesus Christ as absolute Lord of my life, I am commited to pray for, win and nurture at least 2 people in a year" I signed this as a spiritual parent and I wil keep this as a mission for me this year. Next, I desire to see my members to continue to grow and be grounded in the Words. Apart from this, I hope I can graduated this year too. I shall have an exiting year ahead. I pray the same for you too.

God Bless. Have a great year.